Jefferson Aero Plane...if I only had....

I emailed my dad today. My pastor wants me to give a testimony in December at my home church about my conversion to Christ, call to the ministry and future ministry plans. I remember my daddy used to sing this one song that is HILARIOUS! And, it sums up my attitude before I was called to the ministry. I want him to sing it that day! It would really make me Happy!!! It's called "Please Don't Send Me To Africa". If you have been around my family for at least seven years you might have heard it. haha.

I better be going. A lot of us girls were invited to a friends house to eat. I could use some good quality girl time right now!

"Jefferson Aero Plane"

if it hurts,

kiss it better

you wear skirts,

i write nice letters

never said nothing with flowers

though we always talked for hours

and it seems to get much colder

when you cry on your own shoulder

and we know the showmust go on

guess i know

i guess i'll throw on

some jefferson airplane

i'm trapped and i am enclosedbut i won't complain

i'll open all the windows

jefferson airplane

i'm trapped and i am enclosed

but i won't complain

i'll open all the windows

cause when it's colder

i feel much better

when i cry on my own shoulder

i'll just throw on a sweater and go

and i'll go to undergo a change of heart,

a change of clothesand when i'm home,

i think i'll go eat cereal and stare out the window

i'll make the calls

you cover your ears

niagra falls

still flows on new year's

i will save your plunging neck-line

kiss your face

you try to deck mine

if i behave it's going to cost him

stop the rave in downtown boston

and we know the show

must go onguess i know

i guess i'll throw onsome jefferson airplane

i'm trapped and i am enclosed

but i won't complain

i'll open all the windows

jefferson airplane

i'm trapped and i am enclosed

but i won't complain

i'll open all the windows

cause when it's colder

i feel much better

when i cry on my own shoulder

i'll just throw on a sweater and go

and i'll go to undergo a surgery to purge me of this lonely mood

and my ego, the status quo, provides me with a decent attitude

and i'll go to undergo a change of heart,

a change of clothesand when i'm home,

i'll think i'll go eat cereal and stare out the window

cause you confused me more than anyone

an adjustment has begun

to let me feel the desperate need to leave what we undid undone

and maybe you could sympathize

with the bags under my eyes

and we'll see the signs are saying that we have used up all our (tries)

try to be a better person

to be a better friend

to be a better son

he tries to be a better someone

that understands the difference

and that he can't show all the people

all the things

that really mean as much as he could (feel)

feels like i don't remember

ever being this tired (before)

before now my eyes were closed to all of the beauty

in this world

jefferson airplane

i'm trapped and i am enclosed

but i won't complain

i'll open all the windows

jefferson airplane

i'm trapped and i am enclosed

but i won't complain

i'll open all the windows

cause when it's colder

i feel much better

when i cry on my own shoulder

i'll just throw on a sweater and go

and i'll go to undergo a surgery

to purge me of this lonely mood

and my ego, the status quo,

provides me with a decent attitude

and i'll go to undergo a change of heart,

a change of clothesand i'll go, oh yes, i'll go

and hope the new me shows so everybody knows

that i've found myself able to fly away without magic feathers

or jefferson aero planes

i've got with me all that i need

Christmas Is Coming, The Goose Is Getting Fat

This weekend was a good break! My Ethnography pushed me over the edge on Friday. I broke my record. Until Thursday night the latest I had stayed up while at college was 2:30. I broke that record on THursday by staying up till 3:30. I have never pulled an all nighter. I guess I love my sleep too much. I guess I am not a real college student. haha. I guess no one really feels sorry for me. However, I got my box back today and made a 99 on it though, so I guess it was worth all that work!


I hadn't been home in a while, so it was good to be there. Even though I had to leave early on Sunday morning to come back.
I had a good time. Our new house is in the process of being worked on. I LOVE IT! It is such a beautiful house. I think my mom really likes it too. IT is painted all pretty. And, there is a big ceiling in the living room. Which means we can get a huge christmas tree again this year!!! EXCITING!!! On Saturday my daddy spent most of the day working on the yard. While the rest of us looked at the house, ran some errands and went shopping for furniture and such. We went to Smokey Bones for Andrew's birthday dinner. And, I got to help my mom make his birthday Strawberry shortcake. YUM. It was good. And I was glad to cook. I miss cooking!!!

I miss my family and my friends back home. I will finally be back to church this next sunday though. It's been a while. So, it will be nice.

Anyways...there isn't much to say really. Tomorrow night I am going to the Murder Mystery dinner the school Philosophy Club puts on. I have to dress up as a Pirate and my character is the "Inn Patron". I hope I don't have to act anything out or it could get ugly. haha.

Thursday is a social for my trailer. We are going to eat at the Thai restaurant and we are going to watch My Big Fat Greek Wedding and paint our toe nails. lol.

Well, I have to get back to the day. I have so much to do on Mondays. STarting today we have choir rehearsal every Monday night from 7-8:30. So, that is just another thing to add to my busy life. Getting ready for Christmas is always a big deal.

I really started thinking about Christmas today. I am READY for it! It was so cold outside this morning. I felt like I could almost smell the smell of a christmas tree. IT made me want one. I wish I could just take the whole month of December off to be at my house when it is all decorated for Christmastime!!! I LOVE IT!

I am having a really hard time figuring out my schedule for next semester. Right now I only have 12 hours in with no hope of taking anymore cause nothing will work out with my schedule. I have never had this much trouble figuring it out before.

Also, my mom called me today and said my Great Uncle was on Good Morning America. I only share it because it is funny/sad all at once. I mean, honestly....I am thankful for my immediate family and that God blessed me SO incredibly much with them. Yes, we have some weird people in our family tree. But mostly...I just think it's nasty that this would even take place. ESpecially within my own family tree. I wish I could say everyone in my family was saved. But, I guess it just isn't true. Here is the link to the article:

http://www.abcnews.go.com/GMA/story?id=3789033


HEre are some pictures from Andrew's birthday and the weekend:























Andrew has always wanted a king Arthur's sword. So, for his birthday, that is what he got.

Exactly The Words I Need

The weekend is almost here. And, I have to say I honesty wish Christmas Break was here! I am halfway there. But, at times I just don't feel like I will be able to do everything I have to do. I know that isn't true. I always accomplish what I need to. But, this semester is burning me out really quickly.

I am going home to celebrate Andrew's birthday this weekend. I will only be home for Saturday. It will be a quick trip. But, it is a much needed one. I am ready to just see home. haha. I wonder sometimes what will happen one day when I am on the mission field and I get really anxious just to be home again and I can't do it?

God has been teaching me a lot lately. Most of it is just a reminder of what He has already tried to teach me. But, He always gives me just what I need right when I need it. I have been struggling with God's will for a long time now in some situations in my life. And I feel as if I will never get an answer. But, I think I have come to the point where I can quote faithfully all that God has taught me through this one situation. Isn't it amazing how many things He can teach you through just one circumstance in your life? Apart from that though, I am learning exactly what I have been doing to get in my own way of what God wants to say to me.

I was sitting in a church on choir tour last week. I was pretty upset about some things that were happening in my life. I was having a particularly rough day. I remember this summer when I was going through a rough couple days and God sent someone to me to give me a freakishly close to home word of advice. I remember about a month ago when the same thing happened. I was really upset, it was that exact day when I got a letter in the mail from my friend Tina. It was really strange, because it was speaking to me RIGHT where I was at in life. Everything in that letter spoke straight to my heart and to my circumstances. I broke down in tears. Well, I was having a day like that on choir tour this past week. I had woken up at my Aunts house and was getting ready. Taped to the mirror in her bathroom was this verse:

Psalm 143:8

Let me hear Your loving kindness in the morning; For I trust in You; Teach me the way in which I should walk; For to You I lift up my soul.

Later on that afternoon I was sitting in a church reading my bible and reading my commentary. The subject that day was all about God's will and how He will reveal it to us right when we need it. It also talked about how to find God's will. But, this quote really stuck out to me:

"When we are what God wants us to be, He is in control and our will is merged with His will, and therefore HE gives us the desires HE has planted in our hearts."

All of these events lately have been a little strange to me. Because of the way they have occured I know they were straight from God. It amazes me that a God who is in control of everything in the universe still takes notice of my life. He takes notice of what is going on in my life and what I am dealing with. I don't deserve His attention. I guess I am just amazed that God would take time to encourage me. Even on the days when I am so busy I barely even think of spending time with Him. Even when I am so consummed with myself that I am wallowing in self pity.

I hate pity parties. But sometimes I am guilty of throwing them.

Anyways...I guess that is a tiny piece of what God has been doing lately. I know He has a lot to do in my life and a lot to show me over the next couple months. This is a good thing. And, since I have time, I guess I don't need to worry about it too much.

Fall break is over. And it is back to school for me. I have my ethnography box due once again, at the end of this week. I am not too happy about this. haha. But, I suppose it just means I will be working hard to get all my homework done this week. Especially since our week was kind of cut short. I have three nights to do 30 entries. That will probably equal about seven hours of work!

So, I was gone on choir tour all weekend. We went to Birmingham. I got to spend the night with Grace one night! It was a lot of fun!!! I was glad to see her and talk to her once again! Choir tour wasn't so bad. I wasn't sick like last time. So that made it a lot better to start off with. But, it was good to make new friends.

My family surprised me and showed up at the concert on Sunday night! I like surprises like that! IT was really good to see them. And it was also really sad to see them go! But, I did get to eat with them after the concert. So that was nice.

choir tour is technically not over until Wednesday night. We have another concert in Toccoa on Wednesday night at a Senior Citizen conference. lol.

I am glad to be back. I slept in this morning instead of going to work out because I was so tired from the tour. Choir was called off for this afternoon which will give me a chance to go workout this afternoon and it will give me a chance to get a lot of work done! I need to do that even though I really don't feel like getting back into classes. Sometimes I wonder if I was really cut out for college. haha. I like it sometimes. But, at other times I just really don't feel like doing all of the work I have to do!

Well, I guess I better go get some of that work done!

No Use Crying Over Spilled Milk

Have you ever heard the phrase,"There's no use crying over spilled milk?" It's true...there is no use crying over something small like that. But, today I actually spilled my milk. No worries...I didn't cry about it. However, it got me to thinking about that phrase. And the fact that sometimes, when you are upset about things, and everything keeps piling up on top of each other, you hold things all in until you do something small like spill your glass of milk and that somehow turns on the faucet of emotions. THere are some days when EVERYTHING seems to be going wrong. And, spilling your milk is maybe the last straw of the day where you just want to break down and cry. Sometimes when one thing goes bad so does everything else. I don't know why days seem to happen like that. What goes up must come down, they say.

God has been speaking to me a lot lately. I hate it when He speaks through pain. But, sometimes that is God's megaphone. Or it is His way of getting our attention and saying,"Slow down and pay attention". I don't like that kind of situation. But, I think the more I live through it the better I am for it. Lately God has been showing me how truly disgusting sin is in His sight. We tend to down play our own sin and build other people's sin up. But, in the end, it is all disgusting and selfish. I never want God to mourn over my sin as I have with the sins that others have committed against me. But I know He has. I want to remember forever what it is like to truly feel the disgust of a specific sin and realize that God thinks all sins are that disgusting. THere is no candy coating with God. There is no "well, this sin was just a small one". It is still sin and it still cannot dwell in His presence.

I think I have a lot of things to work through right now. I feel like once again I am being broken down in a painful way so God can build me back up into something more like Himself. I hate the painful times in life. These past two years has held a lot of those times for me. But, there is something amazing about even realizing throughout it all that God has a purpose. And that there is never a hopeless moment in a christians life. No matter how big or small the trial is they are facing. Finding joy in the pain is something that is hard to do. But, it is something I want to learn to accomplish.

So, while I may not cry over spilled milk. I may be pushing tears aside all day long from painful things and then when I do something small, like spill milk, it is the last straw and I break down and cry.

My room mate said something really good the other day. I was upset. And, I told her that I hated crying sometimes. I felt like such a baby. I hate feeling all girly and emotional. She took me out to eat and she said something that I had never really thought about. She said tears (in her eyes) were God's gift to us. It allows us to express things and emotions that we cannot express in words. There is something truly freeing about having a good cry. She's right. How cruel would it have been for God to leave us here in a sinful world without a release mechanism for the crap we go through. Sometimes, just to cry and express pain in a way I couldn't if I used words, is a truly amazing thing. So, even though I wish I was less emotional, I thank God for tears!!! Some days I just need tears. And, I always need to refreshing of God's Word and His comfort.

I am truly let down by this world. I am truly let down by others. I am truly let down by myself. I long for a day when this won't happen anymore. But, for now, I will just use it to make me stronger and better.



Me and Alicia ate lunch together today at Sonic. This is a picture of me and her! I have missed her a lot lately :(

Tomorrow it is off to B-Ham for Choir Tour. Keep me in your prayers if you think about it. Mainly that I will have patience with people and love for those I am in contact with. As well as a good attitude about it!

An Ode To Squirrels (and other things)...

I have a bad attitude about choir tour. I really just don't want to go. I need to somehow get a good attitude about it or it could be miserable for me.

I am sick. I feel as if I might have the flu or something. I will spare you all the gory details though. Either way I still went about my day. I could barely stand it during choir though. I just wanted to go lie down.

We had dinner in gate cottage in anticipation of choir tour.

Tomorrow is my last day of classes for this week. Thursday I get to sleep in as long as I want to. I am looking forward to having half a day of relaxation before leaving for tour.

This song has become close to my heart these past two days, it's by Plumb:

"I Can't Do This"

I woke up late

Guess I'm never really early

I hesitate, only to fail

I get so tired, of procrastinating

I need a change

[Chorus:]

I can't do this,I can't do this,

I can't do this by myself

I can't do this,I can't do this,

Oh God I need Your help

I'm standing still

Move so peaceful

I can't pretendThat I'm fine

I get so ill, crazy agitated

When I

[Chorus]

I can't do this,I can't do this,
I can't do this by myself
I can't do this,I can't do this,
Oh God I need Your help

Press into me

Breathe the air

Bask in me

You'll be free

To do anything

Alicia Her is int own! I am so excited to see her. She is the person who I will miss on choir tour. I won't have her waking me up in the middle of the night going "Who dat?" (she's asian). haha. I get to hang out with her tomorrow...So I am excited about this!

Anyways...I will end with sort of a depressing story about my day.

This morning I was headed to the gym (as I always am on Tuesday and Thursday morning). I am admiring the beauty of God's creation. And, I notice that for some reason an enormous amount of squirrels are out playing. I get to the guard shack and all the sudden I see two squirrels playing in the middle of the road. One of them runs to the side and hops away into the forest. While the other one starts to spaz (in true squirrel fashion). I decide to dodge it because as I start getting closer I realize it is not going to get out of my way. Well, I decide to go to the left because he looks like he is going to stand still. But, right as I do that he decides to dodge to the direction I am headed in. So, alas, I don't hear a crunch. So, I think to myself,"Man, that was a close call! THank goodness I didn't hit him" Well, I look in my rearview mirror to see little squirrely flopping around. And, I started getting really upset when I realized I didn't actually kill him. I just hit him hard enough to where it would take him a while to die and he would have a painful death. I called my mom because I didn't know what to do. I didn't know if I should go get him and take him to the Vet's office to see if they could repair him. I thought at least I should move him to the other side of the road. However, it didn't happen. She told me it might bite me. So, I refrained. I went all the way to the gym only to find out it was closed. And on my way back I looked for my little squirrel friend only to find him dead in the road. It made me really sad. This is the first animal I have ever killed.

THe rest of the day whenever I would see a squirrel (which is a lot on TFC's campus) I would think to myself,"Did I just kill his wife, or mother? Brother, or cousin?" I will never be able to look at a squirrel the same! SAD DAY!

You Can't Use A Sponge!

This weekend was really busy for me. It seemed really long and really short all at once. I don't know how it is that time can seem like that, however, a lot of times it does crawl/fly all at once.

Friday night I spent at least an hour trying to rent the movie Evan Almighty. They didn't have it available anywhere in Gwinnett county. It was all checked out. haha. So, I opted for watching "The Astronaut Farmer" and eating cookies. NEVER watch that movie...by the way. It is one of the dumbest movies I have ever seen. It is on up there with Benji or Win Dixie....haha.

On Saturday I did something that I do not do often, and I am unwilling to do for many things. It takes something special to get me up on Saturday afternoons. Especially if it isn't against my will. But, this saturday I woke up at 6:45 and went to a seminar in Stone Mountain at the Wycliffe branch. It was called "explore Wycliffe". It was pretty much a seminar from 8:30-3:00 all about Wycliffe and how it works and what all it involves. Plus, you got to ask questions. There were only 20 people present, plus three Wycliffe workers that were there to tell you about their experience. It was set in a room that they'd made into a smaller museum on Wycliffe. It was pretty interesting because they had a shelf containing all the bibles they had printed thus far and what language they were in. They have completed 700 translation projects so far. There are over 1,000 in progress and over 2,000 more to go! But, they still have their vision of 2025. They want to have a translation STARTED in every language by that year. I really was impressed by their organization besides the fact that they have to raise their own support. It is kind of a turn off for me when I hear that. For many reasons. Part of it being I feel like we should work for our money. I don't want to be foolish when God has given me two hands and not support myself. I don't want to have to rely on other people to support me in life. If I start a missions project I want to finish it. No questions asked. Anyways...I really enjoyed being there (even on a Saturday) and hearing all about it. It was a really cool place. There were some really nice people there to talk to about it.

Saturday night the choir had a concert that I thought would NEVER end. It was the 100th anniversary of our school. And since it was homecoming weekend they had a big celebration. haha. Unfortunately the college choir was part of that. But, Carlye spent the night with me and I got to go on a walk and talk with her for the first time in a while!

Sunday I went to the PAC again and the cutest little Asian man said I looked just like Jessica Alba. I just laughed and said,"YEAH RIGHT!" haha. And he goes,"Really, really!" haha. Man, at least you guys can see clearly...I am nothing like her. She is tall. I am short. She is SUPER stick skinny. I am do not look like I am about to blow away in the wind. She is brunette. I am more blondish. haha. She is tan. I am WHITE! But, bless that little man's heart. He made my day. It has been interesting going to that church. Daron preached and he did a really good job.

Today I had a mid term in my World Literature class. I think I did alright on it. Tomorrow I have my Sociolinguistics exam. I have a lot of studying to do tonight! It is hard material to learn but it is really fun! so, I know I won't mind studying for it too much. It's active learning. I get to make sounds and figure things out instead of just sit there and read over things for hours on end!

Choir tour starts on Thursday.

I don't have classes after Wednesday. I actually get to sleep in as long as I want on Thursday. I am so exhausted. I think I will definitely need that before fall break happend. I won't be getting much sleep on choir tour.

Anyways...this is a song by Nichole Nordeman (of course) that God has been speaking to me through lately. Maybe it will mean something to as well. It goes right along with some things I am struggling with in regards to my faith.

I believe in the rest of the story
I believe there's still ink in the pen
I have wasted my very last day
Trying to change what happened way back when

I believe it's the human condition
We all need to have answers to why
More than ever, I'm ready to say that I
Will still sleep peacefully
With answers out of reach from me until?

Someday all that's crazy
All that's unexplained
Will fall into place
And someday all that's hazy
Through a clouded glass
Will be clear at last
And sometimes we're just waiting
For someday

We are born with a lingering hunger
We are born to be unsatisfied
We are strangers who can't help but wander
And dream about the other side of?

Every puzzle's missing piece
Every unsolved mystery
More than half of every whole
Rests in the Hands that hold you for someday?.

I will end with a great quote by AW Tozer: "Trying to absorb the depths of the Bible is like trying to mop up the ocean floor with a sponge"

I hope everyone is having a great week!

Greek Literature...Who Cares?

So...I HATE GREEK DRAMA. I really really do. I do not care if the greeks invented literature. I still hate it. Why must we read something that you can't even understand from hundreds of years ago that is simply (apparently) a good story. THere are plenty of good stories out there that you can understand. No matter how many times you read a piece of greek literature it still needs an interpreter. ANd I hate things like that. I am glad that Homer, Ovid, Virgil, etc were good writers. But, I don't care to read their literature. I was fine with it at first. The Illiad and the Odyssey got on my nerves but I was at least a little interested in the plot and what the teacher had to say. But, it keeps getting more and more ridiculous and therefore keeps getting on my nerves more and more. Besides, in Greek literature you have the gods. And with the gods comes tons of information that can get confusing. Also, each one of the gods has a greek name and a latin name. I DO NOT CARE WHAT THEIR TEN NAMES ARE! I just want to know one name for someone. I have a hard enough time remembering one name for anyone in the world, much less more than that. IT means the same thing anyways...why do we have to know both? WE had a quiz today and it was like,"What is the latin name for Aphrodite" "What is the latin name for Zeus". AHHH! I know those names, I know that Aphrodite is the goddess of love and Poisedon is the god of the sea. But, honestly..I don't keep up with their ten names. Do YOU care what my name would be in chinese? Do you care what my name would be in german? Didn't think so! You only care about one of my names. And that is my name in english.

I think one aspect is that my teacher is offensive sometimes in the way he refers to sexual things. And it makes me mad. I am not immature in the way that you can't mention the word sex in front of me without me giggling. I am in college. But, you have to handle the word in a certain manner without it offending me. It's not a joke to me. It isn't something to refer to with slang. It is something God designed for marriage and I think there is a certain amount of sacredness that it should be treated with. And, I am really getting fed up with how he is talking about it lately. Yet, I am not about to go up to him and be like,"Let's talk about how you talk about sex". Besides, I don't want to know all the "behind the scenes sexual things that are implied".

Alright..I will get off that soap box. Greek literature is getting on my nerves today. Mainly because my teacher is rubbing me the wrong way in the way he is dealing with certain things. But, no one is perfect. I mean, I would probably not be fair in everything either if I were a teacher.

on a different note: This weekend is really busy for me. I have a recital tonight. Tomorrow I have a seminar to attend and a choir concert tomorrow night. Carlye is in town and she is spending the night tomorrow night with me! I am glad to see her. Sunday I am back to Lawrenceville. The pastor asked me to help out teaching the little kids at the PAC (people alliance church). It is the church plant I am helping out with. All the little kids are asian. God really keeps putting all this asian related stuff in my path lately. But, I think it will be a growing experience considering they have all kids (6-12) in one room to be taught during the worship service. I don't even know where to begin. We are also supposed to help them get together a promo video and a salvation video for their church. It's all new for me! We will see how it goes!

So, my weekend is jam packed!

PSYCHO KILLER MONKEYS ARE ON THE LOOSE...

Today is a beautiful day! I am glad because yesterday was rainy. And, I really can only handle the rain for so long. RAin makes me want to stay inside, put on my pjs and read, watch a movie or just go to sleep. Luckily I only have one class on Tuesdays and THursdays.

The sunshine keeps me going during the day. I am SO TIRED this week. I haven't figured out why that is. But, I am just physically exhausted in so many ways. I hope it goes away.

I am trying to get things done this week so I won't have to do them next week. Next week is when midterms roll around. So, keep that in your prayers :)

Last night I spent two hours with PJ Cha. She is my informant for my Sociolinguistics class. She also happens to live with me. I have a four page paper due on the Hmong culture. By the end of the semester I have to learn some of her language. I really LOVED hearing about her culture and just the ways it is different from AMerican culture. I find other cultures fascinating. I feel like this is the kind fo thing I was made for. I love other cultures. I love people that aren't anything like me. I love the thought of one day getting to live around a lot of people different from me and getting to figure them out and talking to them about Jesus. I know it isn't going to be all fun and games. I know it will be hard. But, it is what I find the most joy in. I could have talked to PJ about her culture for longer than two hours! I find it interesting that other people can do things so different and yet still have valid reasons for why they do things. In America we tend to think our way is the best way to do everything. Which is just really silly. PJ did tell me about this one ritual that the Hmong's do that I found really randoma nd hilarious. When a bride gets married before she enters her new home to family gets a chicken (that is alive) and flings it in her face. haha. THis is to welcome her into her new home. WHAT A WELCOME!!! PJ said,"I don't think I want them to do that at my wedding...I am scared of chickens!" haha.

Since Pj has been in America her whole life she is removed from her culture a lot but she still holds to a lot of their traditions.

Anyways...don't want to bore all of you.

Meredith told me about two things yesterday that I found particular interest in for some reason. So, just so you know I am stealing these stories from her. If it weren't for her I wouldn't know about them. However, because of her I will share them. I think they are pretty fascinating. ANd, I just love to hear about things going on around the world instead of just the things going on in the United STates. I don't want to only be concerned with my own people and country.

This first link is to a story that is taking place in Kenya right now. It is really scary/weird at the same time. There are apparently monkeys that are sexually harassing the women over there. I am being serious about it too. Take a look:

http://news.bbc.co.uk/2/hi/africa/6959209.stm

Check out the other article too. IT is about Chinese adoption (something close to my heart):
http://www.dailymail.co.uk/pages/live/articles/news/worldnews.html?in_article_id=486083&in_page_id=1811


The world is kind of crappy. So, at any time I would be glad to have Jesus come back and take me to be with him.


Dreams are nothing more than wishes
And a wish's just a dream you wish to come true
If only I could have a puppy
I'd call myself so very lucky
Just to have some company
To share a cup of tea with me
I'd take my puppy everywhere
La la la la I wouldn't care
Then we'll stay away from crowds
With signs that say no dogs allowed
Oh we... I know he'd never bite me
We... I know he'd never bite me

If only I could have a friend
Who sticks with me until the end
And walk along beside the sea
To share a bit of moon with me
I'd take my friend most everywhere
La la la la I wouldn't care
And we'll stay away from crowds
With signs that say no friends allowed
Oh we...we'd be so happy to be...
We...we'd be so happy to be together

But dreams are nothing more than wishes
And a wish's just a dream you wish to come true
Dreams are nothing more than wishes(Your wish will come true)
And a wish's just a dream (Your wish will come true)
You wish to come true (Your wish will come true)

Just a fun song! ANd, I like it! haha.

My Favorite Things/My Least Favorite Things

This week is hopefully going to go by quickly. I would say I am ready for a break. But, there would be no point considering I won't get one until christmas. Normal people get fall breaks. I never do. MAybe next year?

Yesterday I had to wake up EXTREMELY early to go to the library in Athens (At UGA) all day. This is only because our library stinks. And our books are simply WAY outdated. UGA's library has about 5 million books altogether. ANd they have a lot more online resources than our school ever thought of having. So, since Ethnography requires you to find lots of good sources, we officially have to travel an hour if we want that to happen. It was a boring day. And I realized: There really is very little value in having such a class. Mainly because it is pretty much common sense to know how to do research. I feel like a lot of my classes this semester are common sense. yet, watch me come out with a B in them all. Oh well. I am finding lately that I am frustrated with the fact that my classes are common knowledge. I really have learned so much by being here. But, I am ready to be done with it. Because I feel like I got to the point where I was like,"Yep, I know this already".

Some of my classes are new knowledge to me and they are interesting. So, I am glad for those classes that I feel are actually teaching me things I don't already know! Sociolinguistics is one of those classes. And, I am excited to be learning things from it!

I have officially picked out a song and date for my first recital. I am nervous to have to sing in front of people but it is a short song. So maybe I can make it through without bursting into tears (haha...that's a joke guys). I am singing "My FAvorite Things" from Mary Poppins on November 30. haha. IT is kind of funny to think of me singing that song. My voice teacher apparently has a costume for everything you choose to sing. So I am afraid I might be dressing up like Mary Poppins to sing it! lol. God is humbling me through this experience.

THe rest of this week really just holds work. I am working hard on my Ethnography box. I checked out eight books at the UGA library yesterday that will hopefully provide me with a lot of resources for the next check=in point. I also have a paper to write, voice practice and reading to do!

But, I have come to the conclusion that working hard gives me a sense of satisfaction. It may be frustrating and tiring at some points. But, in the end working hard gives you a lot of satisfaction!!!

I was reading my devotion today and this verse really spoke to me :

18The wrath of God is being revealed from heaven against all the godlessness and wickedness of men who suppress the truth by their wickedness,

That is Romans 1:18. And it spoke to me because the topic was all about how God has called us out of a life of darkness into His marvelous light. He has called us to shine like He shines. To be like He is. To do what He did. To live as he lived when He was on earth. To live like the bible has called us to live. One thing that God has taught me lately is how many christians (including myself at times) chooses to go back to the very nature HE called us out of. We are new creatures. God has killed the darkness and brought us into a NEW life. The old is supposed to be GONE completely. However, as christians we so often act as if that isn't true. WE decide to put back on those filthy rags that God took us out of when he put us into magnificent robes and clothed us with righteousness. THere are men that suppress the truth of Christ with their wickedness. They do not shine God's truth. I don't want to choose to put myself back into filthy rags when God has given me the best clothing I could possibly wear. I don't want to suppress God's truth in my life because I am choosing to put back on the chains of sin when God has freed me from them forever. I want to be HIS light.

Hephzibah

This week has been really busy for me. But, I have somehow managed to get all I needed to accomplished in spite of the business.

I have heard countless times lately that my blogs have tons of spelling errors in them. THat they are hard to read. haha. I have to admit...I don't read back over them. I type it all out and that is it!!! lol. So, I apologize. Perhaps I will double check them someday for the sake of everyone!

Me and Ashley got to hang out this week. But not for long. We went to Ingles and McDonalds. haha. She is pretty obsessed with their iced coffee. But, it was fun. I knocked over the credit card machine and embarassed myself pretty badly. lol. IT was still pretty funny though! We went to Ingles to get cards for people and we found some pretty hilarious ones!!! Oh, it is pretty bad when they can turn the Muppets into something scandulous. I guess that is our world though.

Last night I met with Lanie. Our bible study is picked out and I hope it is something that will be good for us. She picked it out. So, I at least hope it will be good for her!!!

Last night our house had two meetings in one night. At the end we made SMORES!!! YUM! I haven't had those in a LONG time! WE made them in the oven though since it was rainy and nasty outside and since we would most likely burn our trailer down if we attempted to make a fire anywhere near it! They were good. And I don't think I have been that crazy at eleven thirty at night in a long time! I finally stayed up late enough to see Amber when she came in!
This weekend doesn't hold much for me besides more work. I want to get a few papers out of the way because whenever I have homework and tests in a week I just can't handle papers too! I am guessing I will probably spend most of the weekend bored.

I think I am redefining a lot of things in my life. What things mean, what things should effect me, and definitely how to be fulfilled in life.

I don't want to be disappionted anymore with people. Mainly because people are retards because we never seem to pay attention to God in our lives. Sorry...kind of a soap box I guess. But, I really liked this quote from my bible study this morning:
"Contemporary sex madness has even found its way into the church. The influence of the lustful world has been so pervasive and the church so weak and undiscerning that many Christians have become convinced that all sorts of sexual excesses and impurities are covered by grace or can be rendered morally safe if engaged in with the right attitude-especially if some Scripture verse can be twisted to give seeming support."

I guess I like it cause I think it is just so ture. Sadly enough. So many people think have "the right mind about something" trumps what you are doing. And it just isn't true. I guess we have forgotten the part about God being holy and disgusted by sin. It isn't allowed in his presence. We shouldn't want to be a part of it.

Anyways...here are a few pictures from last night. And, I included one from my dad's birthday! :)

I have to include this picture because it is such a typical face for my daddy to make. It makes me smile.

Awaiting the smores.

For some reason Sam's like peanut butter on her smores.

That's what they look like. The Mallows look like Mushrooms. lol

Kim kept making fun of me for getting the smores all over myself. So, I am getting her back.

Life in the Fast Lane

My new sheets came in today. So, my bed got a makeover. It has officially been beautified. I LOVE THEM! They are yellow and they make me happy. IT is a pretty gloomy day. I hate days where the sun is not shining. So, at least my yellow bedspread will brighten up my day...a little bit.

Midterms are coming up soon. I hate tests. I have had three this week. But, I think I have done well on all of them so far. I have one more today.

I think it's sad that I just really count down the days till the weekend. I think that makes my week more miserable. I think I am just ready for the work load of this semester to be over. Mainly my ethnography box. I want that box behind me!!! Really I just want the doing homework from sun up till sun down aspect to be over with. What's funny is as you get older you look back and see how easy you had it freshman and sophmore year. ANd you realize,"I could've had so much more free time back then if I would've just done (fill in the blank)."

This week is a lot less stressful than last week though. And, I am glad for that. I got to talk to Tina last night. I was proud of myself for taking time to actually call her. haha. It's sad. But, I am bad at it. And, when I realize that is one of the best friendships I could ever ask for it seems rather pathetic when I let weeks go by without picking up my phone to call.

Some things to pray for: Dustin, my friend from highschool, has a grandfather that is in the process of dying. Another one of my friends (I am not so sure I can name them) found out that their dad has cancer.

God is constantly reminding me lately of the frailness of life.

My dad sent me an email that went along with what God has been speaking to me about lately. Mainly through other people, but also through his word. ANd that is this: Above all purity starts with the mind. Out of the overflow of the heart the mouth speaks. IF you put garbage in it has to come out in some way. IF you allow your thoughts to be all over the place and don't discipline yourself in that way your actions won't be pure like they should be. And, I think I am learning that more and more. IT is easier said than done though!

This past weekend I finally got to go home. My ethnography requires me to go to Athens to the library which can really only be done on the weekends. Apart from that recitals are starting meaning I won't even be able to leave on Fridays to go home from now on until 5:00 or 6:00. WHich stinks. Also, on sundays and some saturday for this semester I have to visit this church in Lawrencville for a class I am doing. All these things make it hard to go home! Which stinks. But, I made it home this past weekend. And I was glad. I miss my family. It was my daddy's birthday. So, we got to celebrate that. I am thankful to have had another year with my Daddy when some people don't have one at all. Not only do I have one. But, I have the best one. Or at least, I tend to think so!

Anyways...I have to get to class. Hope everyone elses week is running a little bit more slow paced than mine. But then again...when did I ever run my life on a slow pace? NEVER! I hate slow. haha.