What do I Know of Holy?

Have you ever met someone who just made you realize how much YOU need Jesus? What I mean is, someone who reminds you that without Christ you are capable of all sorts of awful things?

Tonight I met someone like that. His name was LA. As I looked into the eyes of LA tonight, I wanted to fall to my knees before God and just say, “Thank you for saving me, I am such a horrible sinner and capable of all kinds of evil without you changing my life”. I am not sure if another human has ever made me feel that so strongly. But, LA made me grateful for a God who placed me in a Christian family. Grateful to a God who opened my eyes to who He was and how much I was in need of Him saving me. LA is a pimp in downtown Raleigh. And he was drunk tonight when we talked to him (you can’t get very far with someone who is drunk). LA had been in jail where people had told him about JEsus. So, he knew all the answers but he was unwilling to change and turn from his sin. That really breaks my heart.

I met several people like LA tonight. I went downtown with a local church to do a homeless ministry they conduct. They buy hamburgers, chips, and water and take them downtown. You go around in groups handing out food and blankets to the homeless and sharing Christ with them. I met two other people: Johnny and Ashley. Ashley was also disinterested and took several steps away from me while we were talking until she was several feet away from me texting on her phone. I can’t say that I blame people for random strangers ambushing them. However, I just feel sad. We hold the key to the biggest thing in life and no one cares. The sad realities of this world. Most people don’t wanna change.

I am trying to force myself to get out in the community more this semester. I intentionally took an evangelism class to force myself to DO SOMETHING! It’s hard to get motivated sometimes here in America to share with people about Jesus. But I want to change that. There is just something about sharing Jesus with other people. I mean, it fulfills something in me. That’s probably because I was created to do it. And I fail at doing it so often.

I realized tonight that this kind of thing makes me so emotionally exhausted. Because I just carry so much weight with this kind of thing. And I realized I have a lifetime of being emotionally exhausted because I carry such a strong burden for people. Missions will definitely make me exhausted.

God has been teaching me a lot lately. I am going through Hebrews. I was reading the other day and it was talking about how God is the Sanctifier. And how we are holy because HE is holy and He lives inside of us. And it dawned on me: I have everything I need inside of me to be Holy: Christ. But I choose to constantly live an unholy life. And, I don’t know why I hadn’t realized it before, but for some reason it just sank in. God is holy and he calls me to a holy life. I can choose holiness. And, I want to look holy to others around me. I want to reflect Christ in my life.

Addison Road sings this song and I LOVE the words:

I made You promises a thousand times
I tried to hear from Heaven
But I talked the whole time
I think I made You too small
I never feared You at all No
If You touched my face would I know You?
Looked into my eyes could I behold You?

(CHORUS)
What do I know of You
Who spoke me into motion?
Where have I even stood
But the shore along Your ocean?
Are You fire? Are You fury?
Are You sacred? Are You beautiful?
What do I know? What do I know of Holy?

I guess I thought that I had figured You out
I knew all the stories and I learned to talk about
How You were mighty to save
Those were only empty words on a page
Then I caught a glimpse of who You might be
The slightest hint of You brought me down to my knees

(CHORUS)
What do I know of You
Who spoke me into motion?
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Where have I even stood
But the shore along Your ocean?
Are You fire? Are You fury?
Are You sacred? Are You beautiful?
What do I know? What do I know of Holy?

(CHORUS 2)
What do I know of Holy?
What do I know of wounds that will heal my shame?
And a God who gave life "its" name?
What do I know of Holy?
Of the One who the angels praise?
All creation knows Your name
On earth and heaven above
What do I know of this love?

(CHORUS)
What do I know of You
Who spoke me into motion?
Where have I even stood
But the shore along Your ocean?
Are You fire? Are You fury?
Are You sacred? Are You beautiful?
What do I know? What do I know of Holy?

What do I know of Holy?
What do I know of Holy?


Jonathan’s first nephew (or neice) was born on February 11, 2010. He is now a first time uncle. And I guess that makes me an (almost) first time aunt. He is a really cute baby. His name is Jonah. We traveled down to Atlanta to see him. And, I got to see my family. It snowed four inches in Georgia. For some reason Blogspot won't let me upload pictures to this post. So I will have to upload some pictures to a different blog post later on!